Health ~ and it's importance

 Lets talk about the importance of Health.

While I was showering this morning, my mind was racing around like crazy, with an abundance of depressive thoughts.
With the inner work healing that I have been tackling and the understanding of awareness that I have in regards to the mind, this was quite alarming to me, that my mind was taking me to repetitive worst case scenario thoughts and ideas. And on repeat. In overdrive...

And then it dawned on me. 
I have been sick for the past 9 days....
This was my body releasing all the toxins, all the shit, all the unwanted garbage that I was carrying with me.
Literally went from a sore throat for a few days, to coughing/sneezing out phlegm, traveling into my eyes-excreting discharge, crazy itchy and painfully red for days; to now the inability to stomach anything.
My mind is in a "depressed state" because my body is struggling to make it through each day because my energy is running on a level 0.
Not to gross anyone out or anything (old nurse here- takes a lot to gross me out so excuse me while I overshare LOL)..but yesterday I had 10+ explosive, diarrhea poops. 
And this has been ongoing since Sunday morning. 
I haven't even been able to tolerate water without my bowels going into overdrive.
Exhausting. Frustrating. Painful. Draining.

Yikessssssss.
NO WONDER I HAVE NO ENERGY.
I'm barely functioning on fucking autopilot.

Now I am only sharing this with you, to bring awareness of the importance of our health to you.
This is something that we are all guilty of taking for granted, basically every single day, until your health is compromised in some way.

Our health is determined by the choices we make in regards to our bodies, minds, heart and souls. It is very much so interconnected to our whole self.

So this has me curious to look further within myself....
Why is my health SO compromised right now?
What is going on? 

I've been taking a detox for the past few months, to excrete my body of the heavy metals from our toxic environment~to the foods we eat, to the air we breath, to the vaccines we inject into ourselves, to the "medication we take" when we are feeling sick, to the chemicals we expose ourselves to. 
And I do feel this is helping, with incorporating mindfulness into each day. The goal is not perfection, but progression.

Recently, I've also quit my nursing job.
So that energetically is a release as well. 
Some cords being cut. To create space for a new opportunity.
But, with the goodbyes of this job, came some heavy emotions too.
A loss of part of my identity/ego that I was once attached to.
Leaving me feeling a little emotionally vulnerable.

The last few weeks I have been experiencing confusion, grief, anger, sadness and worry, as I process the cancer diagnosis of a family member. Lost for words, truly.
In one minute, I'm thinking positive, and sending healing vibes; and in the next, I'm sitting here questioning, and knowing the reason and cause is right in our faces.

There's also been some conflicts arise within some of my intimate relationships lately.
And I find myself resisting a little here, to fully express myself completely.
Which is holding me back, and is another cause of an energetic leak.

And then there's kids...
And I have three of them.
Which is a whole other ball park between the attitudes, overcoming obstacles, time management, cooking meals, entertaining, cleaning up after them, and ensuring their emotional needs have been met.
Not the easiest task in the world.
A very important, underrated job, IMO.

So I find myself sitting here, wondering why I am choosing to share this with you, and asking myself if my message that I want to deliver to you, is clear enough.

Awareness. 
I have the awareness that I am currently in an undesirable state.
And I have the awareness, that I am allowed to process all of these feelings. All of these emotions. With non judgement.
I have the awareness of knowing how powerful my mind is, how amazing my body is for healing itself, and I fully accept to the surrender of the stillness. I accept fully on allowing my body the gift to rest and heal.
I am choosing compassion for myself, while my body and mind go through this experience.
I am in the process of healing my body and soul.
I am choosing to focus on mental wellness.
I am choosing to think positively instead of negatively.
I am in the process of healing my mental health for good.

Your health can change in the blink of an eye.
Become more mindful of each decision you make, by tuning into your intuition.
Ask yourself- how does this feel?
Learn to appreciate yourself, and your amazing beautiful body today- for all that it provides for you in each day of this life in your human form.

Life isn't a race to the finish line.
Start embracing gratitude for each moment that you live.

Thank you for reading my blog.

From my heart to yours,

Ashley 

XO